Wednesday, July 3, 2013

Getting Back to My Roots

I started this blog almost exactly 17 months ago. When I started it, it was for accountability purposes. I'm not going to go into all of the details, but you can read the post here. I started a verse-by-verse study of Proverbs 31. Somewhere along the way, this blog became less about sharing what God had shown me and more about sharing it with others in hopes that they, too, would learn something from Him. I became more concerned with how many people were reading my posts and commenting on them. I began writing based on what I thought God wanted other people to know instead of based on what He was speaking into my life. Somewhere along the way my perspective got jumbled up. I began worrying what other people thought of my writing. I began basing my worth (in the context of my writing) on how many comments came my way. My focus was completely off.

So, I had to take a break. I had to walk away from this thing I love doing. I had to step back and reevaluate my priorities. I've been spending time with God away from this arena. I've been allowing Him to speak into my heart and share His passions and desires with me. He has shown me so much of His heart. I've fallen in love with Him all over again. We've "renewed our vows" so to speak. He has given me permission to return to this. He has put so much on my heart. He has taught me so much, and I want to share it all. If you learn something in the process, well, thank God! If not, that's okay. He'll speak to you through your own time with Him. 

(SIDE NOTE: I encourage you to get alone with Him at some point each and every day. The morning is truly the best time because you can commit the entire day to Him before any of it has happened. However, if your house is like mine, no matter how early you get up to get some quiet time, your kids will hear you and wake up too. Don't get stuck on "it has to be in the morning". Morning may be best, but it's better to do it at other parts of the day than not at all.)

All that said, from now on, I'm not going to be stuck on finishing Proverbs 31. There are so many things He has been showing me that I have put off sharing because it was not part of Proverbs 31. From this day on, I'm going to share what He has shown me that day through my time with Him. If it comes from Proverbs 31 (and I do have one post He has been writing in my head :-)) then my OCD will be happy! If not, that's okay too. This blog has been committed to God. His hands are on the keyboard from this point on. 

P.S. I might still share posts about my kids occasionally!!! :-)


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